Oh, yes. I'm part of that group that doesn't finish their thesis. The only difference I've got among these people is that I can't finish it because I feel completely nervous and anxious of doing it wrong that I can't seem to do it. It might seem a little absurd if you think about it … Continue reading Unfinished Thesis
After many weeks feeling down and worthless, this week I've been feeling great and useful. I haven't accomplished all I wanted to do, but at least I'm doing normal life as a normal person. This makes me incredibly happy. For instance, I've been waking up very early (before 7 am) and taking advantage of the … Continue reading Morning Bliss
Weeks ago, my therapist put me off medications. Nevertheless, he did advised me that, if I ever felt that I needed to take the pills again, if I was about to get a crisis, I should take them again. During these past weeks I was feeling really down, slept more than I should during the … Continue reading Family Ties
Today is my birthday. Yesterday I felt so excited about today, about being celebrated, about my friends and family asking me to be with me today. But that was yesterday. I'm crying right now. I felt uneasy, and I thought I was going to be better. I just now received messages from my friends and … Continue reading Birthday Blues
Today I woke up with heavy headache. As it was ebbing, I drank some coffee and had breakfast with my family. After that, I went to lie down for a little bit. It's almost 5 p.m. and I'm still in bed. Today I wanted to do so many things, to change my life, to live … Continue reading Down the Rabbit Hole.
I was supposed to write an entry per day, at least one a month; but I failed. On November my therapist considered I was well enough to stop my medications. I was completely thrilled. I was "cured". I knew depression would always be with me, but at least I could feel normal again. Nevertheless, my … Continue reading Never ending.
Today's entry is not about me, it's about my brother. He is a doctor. He studied really hard for many years and finally got into his specialization program. In my country, a way of filtering doctors is by being really tough with them. Nevertheless, every now and then you hear stories about doctors who just … Continue reading Bad people.